Fat Naked Moment

In as much as there was another place I would have rather of been... I was cuddled up on the floor tonight with two hot guys and one of my bestest (is that a word?) girlfriends. Just chiling out and being carpet bums. I have always had male friends, but most of the time they are clueless when it comes to "girl stuff". Guys make great friends because they don't think your nuts when you insist that wearing your team jersey while the game is on, helps your team win. One of the reasons gay guys are so fun is the fact that they are just like having girlfriends, but then the chances of them telling you that the outfit your wearing looks hiddeous and tell you to change clothes, so that when ya'll go out they will look all that much hotter are slim.

I am a lightweight. I drank more tonight than I've drank in awhile. Not sure what got into me, just felt like needing to get out of my head for a bit. Bad thing though when I get out of my head my mouth opens up. And I'm me. Uncensored. Not always the wisest decision.

In this whole damn city there are times I realize it's quite small. And I hate it. I wish that there was more actual secrets. More people who were trustworthy. Because no matter what leap I try to take I always feel like I'm standing in the middle of the street naked... and not a good naked moment either... a fat naked moment.

If you ever need a good laugh check out the personals, or those myspace.com accounts. Quite funny. Sex on the net. Who would have thunk it? Good looking people but still, makes me grateful and for once I feel like I don't deserve what I've got. I don't think "I could do better". I've got the best and I will murder anyone who tries to fuck anything up for me.

I'm having a "fat naked" feeling moment. I need to sleep this off.

posted by Carrie, Samantha, Miranda, and Charlotte @ 12:23 AM Comments: 0